AAAAArrrrrrgh

I am so fucking bored here. This is such a small town and its so hard for me to find a job here. Although i just turned in another application with this manufacturing company i am praying that this works out. I need to get this money rolling in so I can pay off my credit cards and begin my money rolling for Chicago. I am bound and determined to get there by early next year. The love of my life is there and i have finally put my endless searching for a kindred spirit to rest. Without unveiling alot of extra information that i dont want plastered all over the place, this man is fucking amazing and was blesses the moment he walked into my life and the club i was working at. He tours for Pigface, Thrill Kill Kult, Dope and Mushroomhead. He's a DJ and owns his own record label. He has a fabulous loft in downtown Chicago (where else?) and he is set. He is charming, smart, witty and sensitive all rolled into one. I can for the first time see myself married to him and this excites and scares me to no end. He hasnt had a serious or meaningful relationship with a woman in over 6 years. And when we collided we let things die at first. But i rekindled the friendship we had after a year and it has been a roller coaster ever since. He has flown down once to see me (right before the last Pigface tour) and then flew me to Chicago right before i moved here to NC. And now he's on tour with Dope and Muchroomhead, i am going to try my hardest to see him on this tour when they come here. BUt he already has my ticket bought for my treck up there again to see Dead Can Dance together. And let me tell you i am going crazy trying to figure out what HOT little number im going to where. DCD are only playing 6 venues on this tour in North America, and they're all at MAJOR performing arts centers. Like where they hold operas and musicals. Its going to be one of the most majical and romantic nights of my life...truly! Not to mention he calls me atleast 3 times a day to tell me he loves me and simple responses of the same kind are enough for him to come to tears and the sound of me saying "I love you" in return. I love his man entirely for eternity.